Pianochocolate - Forgotten love

Dedicated to all that once felt something great, like the poetry of this song.



See you soon

Turning the screw

Today I felt something that has no name. It was a mix of feelings. Good feelings and bad ones. I smiled about the happy past, the glance of heaven I once had but, I became sad because it´s past. I had a hole in my chest and I even wanted to cry for a second. I felt like saying goodbye. But it was good ´cause I realized I´m not actually living in the present. Sometimes I feel like a robot. I´ve been working a lot and it´s been really tiring. I chose this and I am not complaining. I love what I do and it keeps my mind busy. To be honest, I don´t think I would be able to handle everything if I wasn´t working so much.

Everything is so different (I´m quite different as well) since i came back from Rio. But it´s time for me to adjust (I wonder how it´ll be next year when I come back from New York). Even thought I already knew I wasn´t really here it was only today that I felt and truly noticed it´s more than time for me to live in the present. I need to enjoy and concentrate in the now. I´m thinking too much about the future and if I don´t change my mind I´ll be frustrated when the time comes.

Another thing that I need to work is how to deal with the fact that everything takes time and I need to wait...

Confused feelings, confused test. All I know is that now (hopefully) I may start adjusting to the present, after all it will always be present. The past was once present and the future will be as well. 

Wish me luck.

See you soon.